I feel like I have a new lease on life.
Normally its such an effort for me to go anywhere, the walking is very hard because of the cmt, and i get exhausted. it means i'm very limited in where i go. and i have no vehicle right now.
But this month i have been using my sisters old bike (old - no brakes, squeaks, no shocks, . . ) and i can go places.
the first day i rode 5 blocks to school with the kids, then biked back home. could hardly walk into the house, my legs were like jelly!
4 weeks later, and i can ride into town, twice!
i used to hate bikes. too scared of the speed, and of falling/crashing.
i guess this is one fear i have overcome for the moment.
and the freedom is awesome!
i'm going to hate the snow, though. maybe i'll get a sled dog.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Sunday, September 26, 2010
life carooms on
well, there were a lot of people paying attention to facebook, and curious enough to take the time to read the whole blog.
erk.
but excellent feedback. and I have started talking to my sister about feelings *gasp*. (our family doesn't talk about feelings, or show feelings. except my mom, but we all roll our eyes - she's a mom, for god's sake, what does she know? lol)
so, the first step was a doozy, but alls well that ends well.
now i have to think of another fear. and actually, I think its not fear so much as anxiety. which are different.
like, when hubby said he was going away for 3 months, I immediately began to be afraid of noises at night, had to get a monitor so i could hear the kids better, had trouble sleeping, ect. thats anxiety, not a fear of the dark or something.
He just phoned. Was supposed to come home in 2 days, stay for awhile, then go up north looking for a job. However, he got a call to work in revelstoke for 2 weeks, so he'll come home tonight at midnight, and leave tomorrow at 9am with our only vehicle.
so.
some rethinking, some juggling. some more missing him, from all of us. but we'll survive, we always do. thank goodness for med's. lol.
erk.
but excellent feedback. and I have started talking to my sister about feelings *gasp*. (our family doesn't talk about feelings, or show feelings. except my mom, but we all roll our eyes - she's a mom, for god's sake, what does she know? lol)
so, the first step was a doozy, but alls well that ends well.
now i have to think of another fear. and actually, I think its not fear so much as anxiety. which are different.
like, when hubby said he was going away for 3 months, I immediately began to be afraid of noises at night, had to get a monitor so i could hear the kids better, had trouble sleeping, ect. thats anxiety, not a fear of the dark or something.
He just phoned. Was supposed to come home in 2 days, stay for awhile, then go up north looking for a job. However, he got a call to work in revelstoke for 2 weeks, so he'll come home tonight at midnight, and leave tomorrow at 9am with our only vehicle.
so.
some rethinking, some juggling. some more missing him, from all of us. but we'll survive, we always do. thank goodness for med's. lol.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Out of the closet
Okay, I just posted on facebook. The word is out, the blog is open to people I actually know, and some I actually see everyday.
Hopefully, no-one is paying attention!
Hopefully, no-one is paying attention!
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