So I had my next session with Donna, it went amazing as always.
We worked to figure out what it will look like for Persephone to grow up, something I hadn't thought of. I knew she needed to grow up, but hadn't thought of what that would look like.
adult |
child |
I need to build a staircase, with child Persephone at the bottom and adult Persephone at the top. I have no idea yet what each step will look like.
I did figure out that I want my steps to hold my signs - the things I need to watch out for so I can deal with Artemis's dogs before they overwhelm her - and that if I slip back a step, then I can see it and deal with it. Normally I am ignoring them so hard that I don't see my signs at all, so Persephone has to step in to keep me and others safe.
Donna said not to feel bad if I slip back, but use that opportunity to figure out how to move forward.
I also figured out that my job in childcare allowed me to stay in the same place - it didn't change for 40 years, so essentially I stayed the same as my 'teenage babysitter/oldest sibling of 4' self. I really never did grow up. I did a Peter Pan, lol.
flower fairy - peter pan persephone |
I definitely have the coping skills of a preschooler, so that could partially explain my overwhelm if it was like expecting a 5 yr old to run a household and a business at the same time.
I wonder what the staircase will look like?