She Grew!

We had a visit from Jenna last night - she is now 5'10", size 9.5 feet! She is doing well, considering. Her cancer is in remission, she has 1 more chemo instead of 2, then a bone marrow transplant, hoping to be home by October. She has been keeping up with her schoolwork, and hopes to back in highschool soon after. Way to go, girl! She was very tired, late for her meds and line flushing, on her way home to watch an episode of My Little Pony and go to bed. Then back to the hospital today.

Tuesday friends -

You are doing just great.

Wednesday Joie de Vivre -

Hubby is working his difficult shift a lot lately. He has several shifts which start and end at different times, and are from 11 to 14 hours. This one starts at eleven pm, which doesn't sound too bad, but is actually hard. We can't make dinner or wash dishes because he's sleeping at 5 or 6 pm in the next room. And he doesn't get much sleep because that's only 5 or 6 hours and its interrupted sleep since we make noise as we eat, do homework, go to bed. If he keeps getting this shift, I will have to rearrange things. Again. The joys of co-habitating.

First visit home in a long while :)

Sunday's Inspiration -

Monday's sick day - 

Look who's feeling better - Jenna showed up in her old school today!

Memories

That post about photos made me so melancholy I went back and looked through my previous posts, like an album.

We are going to the farm in a few days, here is the picture I painted of it:

a large pie-shaped wedge of green
criss-crossed with fences made of wood and wire
splitting the 11 acres into 6 fields and 2 corals
clinging to the side of the mountain
so steep, you are higher than the trees below
so high, the mountain tops are just right there
9 goats wander around together
55 chickens and a rooster scratch the dirt
6 more little banties peep, peep, peep
and my bunny growls at the dog
ghosts of cows graze the fields
gone now, the bylaws make it impossible
to raise them
memories of horses, all sizes and colors
looking over the fence at us
in our treehouses and hidden forts
the lilacs are in bloom,
the fruit trees in blossom
bees and humming birds competing for
nector and pollen
and in the middle of it all
the house and barns
full of kids and light and family

I can't wait to get there. We didn't go last year. It's been too long.

Photos

Hmmm, I just checked the profile pic, and I don't actually look that different, other than shorter hair that is more grey. So, I'll keep it a bit longer.

I don't have any photos anyway. They used to be important to me. I would take photos all the time, and put them in scrapbooks to hold on to the memory. Then my kids could look at them. When I was away at college, and homesick, I would look through my childhood album for hours.

When I was faced with the possibility of losing baby Christopher, photos became sooooo important - I was so anxious that we get photos of him, since he would be here for so little time. But it didn't work out. He was born early, and the photographer didn't come until hours and hours later.

I was, and am still, so disappointed that he looks dead in his photos. He looks alive in my memories. I think I will get his portrait done one day when I have a little extra money. Then he will look like he's sleeping.

I never take photos anymore. Poor kids. A big 4 year chunk of time with no photos.  Maybe it is time to start again.

Sometimes I think I am getting over Christopher. Then I think maybe not.

Jenna's photo for today, Just being a girl - 

Can't go wrong painting your nails!

Lazy much?

I don't know if I'm lazy, or TIRED still, or suffering from gluten hang-over, or maybe everything plus more, but I cannot get anything done! It's driving me crazy.

Now, I just found out we are $1500 short this month, with no extra funds to dip into. I soooooo suck at math. So much for our great budget. I guess it would help if both hubby and i knew what the budget was. Time for a sit-down so i can show him the budget, and he can fix it.

Wish me luck getting back on track, cramming 15 million things to do into 1 day.

Jenna's photo:

Funny Friday -

This makes me laugh every time I read it. I just read it 6 times while writing this post, and  I snickered each time.
 Okay, just did it again, lol.

A Day to Remember

This day will go down in my own personal history book - the first time I was mistaken for a Gramma. I am 44 years old, so it is possible. And I have kept some gray in my hair (right now, a lot of gray, I guess).
I will post a photo sometime soon. I have changed a little since my profile pic was taken 6 years ago, lol.

Jenna's power thursday -

Hulk Smash Cancer

Catching Up

Two Sick Mondays -

Get well soon!

Two Friend Tuesdays -

Jenna's school has been holding fundraisers all year for her.

We all support Jenna in her fight!

2 Joie de Vivre Wednesdays -

 It's been 5 weeks post chemo & today is the first time in 7 weeks that Jenna can eat REAL food.  We have had a couple day passes, got some fresh air and a few giggles. Thank you all for the continued love, prayers and support you have sent our way. Xo -posted yesterday.

This is some joy

1 Power Thursday - 

Who is your favorite Super Hero?

Jenna amazes me day in and day out. Her strength and courage to do this all over again shows me she hasn't lost her fight or determination. She truly is my hero. - posted by her Mom on April 26th. 

1 Funny Friday - 

1 Girls Saturday - 

Just hanging out with her pups, I mean peeps. . . . 

1 Sunday of Inspiration -