Aura and the Aurai

(J) Aura and the Aurai are nymphs of the breeze, and children of the Wind Gods. 

Aura was a companion of Artemis - she could run as fast as the wind, and was a skilled archer and hunter. She will be the one who helps my make major changes if all else fails. The rest of the Aurai were cooling breezes, and the fresh air of the morning. They will blow through my head and be the winds of change. 

The strategies of the Amnisades should help me to adapt stressors so that they are manageable, but if I still am not managing, I will get the help of those around me to come up with some major changes. Things like quitting my job or moving somewhere else. A big change should relieve the stressors, and also shock the system. 

Dryad Children

 (I) The Dryads come with me on my journey through the Karteros Gorge as I follow the Happiness Project Year. They will help me keep my focus outward as I journey so that I don't turn inward and obsess about what I am feeling and doing, what is not working, what I can't do well, spiraling further and further down. They will each represent one of the 8 senses, and I will use the sensory input to distract from ruminating and remind myself to focus outward. Many of these reminders will be similar to the strategies from the Amnisades, except maybe more tied to this specific situation. All of these plants grow in the Karteros Gorge.

 I will also need to have some sort of big project to keep my focus outwards. I will wait until the time, but some ideas are to take a course or to help a charity. Or have a big goal needing planning, like doing the Camino. It will have to have connections to other people for sure though. 

Dryads are the spirits of trees and companions of Artemis. There are many types of tree dryads, all young women. They do have children, both girls and boys, and so these will be dryad children. I have always LOVED the flower fairies, and I am coming to understand that I don't need to be embarrassed about my child-like interests. I've even bought myself some books that I loved about fairies, ect but didn't keep. It makes me so happy to look at them!

Elici the willow-dryad.
(Cicely Mary Barker, Willow Fairy)

 Elici is another name for Helice, a willow-dryad. Helice cared for Zeus when he was an infant and later she became the constellation of Ursa Major, the Bear which is North on the wind compass. 

Willows are flexible, open to new ideas, and yet tough when they need to be. Elici will remind me that I am safe. Doing some willow weaving will be the sense of touch, and the meditation and focus of weaving will calm me down and distract me from ruminating.

(Cicely Mary Barker)

Anapseucho, meaning 'to refresh one's spirit' in Greek, is my Plane Tree dryad. The Plane Tree is tall, with far-spreading branches that give shade to every village square. It is resistant to stresses and shows where water is, as it is found at springs, wells, creeks, rivers, etc. It is considered a gift, and the Gaia Tree. 

Anapseucho will represent the sense of hearing, as music. Playing upbeat folk music will be my reminder to focus outward, and help change my mood to a more positive one. I could also try to learn a new instrument or new music, or join the community choir again. Lots of possibilities.

Wild Thyme Flower Fairy
(Cicely Mary Barker)

Andreea, meaning 'courage' in Greek, will use the sense of taste to help with outward focus. Thyme tea can help me calm, and thyme cough drops can remind me to change focus. Thyme energises and was used to bestow courage to warriors before a battle. 

Bryony Flower Fairy
(Cicely Mary Barker)

Elly (from Elpis, the goddess of hope) represents the Proprioception sense, which is coordinated movement. Cretan Bryony is from Crete, and a bit different thatn European Bryony. A fast-growing vine spread by birds eating berries, it tangles into everything around it. Elly will remind me to go for a walk or a swim or something exercisy with someone else to get the focus outward, and the endorphins going.

Acorn Fairy
(Cicely Mary Barker)

Opsi is a Kermes Oak dryad. Opsi means 'look' in Greek, as in how something looks. He represents the seeing sense, reminding me to look at the acorn and remember to not keep things hidden inside, and also to look around - I may think that I am trapped but if I turn around, there may be an open door behind me that I was missing.

(Cicely Mary Barker, Yew Fairy)

Euche (pronounced yoo-khay, and meaning 'prayer/wish' in Greek) is my Greek Cypress Tree dryad, and reminds me to say a prayer for someone else, and work to make other's wishes come true. The Greek Cypress has small cones that look like the yew berries, but are grey, and the needles are similar enough that the Yew Fairy was the closest match. He represents the sense of smell, as Cypress resin smells amazing and is used as an essential oil and as incense. The smell will get me to take notice and the prayer for others will help me focus outward. This has worked in the past to get me over some trauma feelings.

(Cicely Mary Barker)

Iso is my Chastetree dryad. Iso is short for 'isorropia', which means 'balance' in Greek. Iso means 'equal' and chastetree is used to balance the hormones of women. The plant has long blue-grey leaves and spires of purple flowers, much like the lavender plant above. She represents the Vestibular sense, which processes balance and movement. I will do balance exercises which will move my body and require lots of focus because of my CMT!

(Cicely Mary Barker)

 

Schesi, meaning 'relationship' in Greek, is going to be my Ivy dryad - it almost looks like ivy growing up the tree there. He will be the sense of interoception - internal body cues and emotional body cues, and like Ivy, he will wind his way around us all, making bonds between us. My interoception action to have my focus turn outward will be to do a body check (to define what emotions I'm having) and then have some bracelets to snap on my wrist, or something similar, to get my focus outside the body. 

So, I may change this around a bit at the time, but hopefully this will help keep me from going inside too deep during the Happiness Project, which includes lots of checklists and goals to get bogged down in.

The Compass

 So as I head into the Karteros Gorge on my Green Journey for my Goddess Project, I need to step things up. I have all of my strategies and supports, from Britomartis and Athena to the Hyades, now I need to DO something.

I think that (H) will be the Happiness Project. This book explores ways to discover more about yourself and ideas on how to make the most of your strengths. It is a year-long plan, which is good for this part of the journey. It gives me something to focus on that is not the overwhelm of the moment and the out-of-control feelings, but something positive in the future. It is very much a 'doing' program which is something that I need.

The Ancient Greeks used a compass with 12 winds. This green design will be my 12-point compass. Doing the Happiness Project means choosing 12 new habits, 1 for each month, and then continuing on with them. For example, one month might be all about Making Connections. The new habits I learned in this month would be continued on as I add new skills from the next months.

Aparctias (meaning 'from the bear' or Ursa Major) is Boreas, the North Wind. At summer solstice, the sun rises at Caecias and sets at Argestes, during the Equinos, the sun rises at Apeliotes and sets at Zephyrus (the West Wind). At the winter solstice, the sun rises at Eurus (the East Wind) and sets at Lips (the wind that brings rain).

If I can use the Happiness Project to ground me and give me something to focus on, then I have a much better chance of making my way through the crazy to the other side.

The Hyades and The Hesperides

(G) The Hyades and the Hesperides (both Atlantides, and half-sisters to the Pleiades) will represent my community supports and will be waiting at the junction where the Astrakiano and Kounaviano Gorges meet the Kartero Gorge. 

Connecting to my friends and getting support is also the next step that Persephone needs to make to grow up, after accepting emotions. She must not lock up the dogs and hide them away. She must talk to people so she can get different perspectives and ideas. Otherwise, she has a much higher chance of wresting control away from Artemis and hiding in Lethe's cave of forgetfulness in the Underworld, taking my life with her.

The Hesperides are the daughters of Atlas, making them Atlantides but their mother is Herperis, daughter of Hesperus the Evening Star so they are called nymphs of the sunset. They will be part of my community supports by representing my friends. I generally don't talk to anyone, and so this would be a big step for me. But I guess it needs to be done, sigh. I can think of several people I could talk to - some from church, a cousin, a college friend. None I talk to regularly but all have said that I could call if I need to. I will add more as find more people to talk to.

Images: Victor Nezovtsev, details

At my last appointment, I asked how to do friends and community as supports. When I am not doing well, there is nothing a friend could do - at least they haven't been able to do anything in the past. Donna has explained that I need to connect with friends before this point, that I need to establish relationships in the green zone so we can both share good and bad, big and little things to help each other before the crisis point. Then, when we are in need, we have a support net to rest on. 

That it can be as simple as a text to say 'I love you' or 'how are you today?' So I have gone back to my self-care nephelai and made a post with connecting ideas here. So the plan is to keep in touch while I am in the Green Zone, share more in the Yellow Zone, and ask specific people for extra support during the Green Journey.

The Hyades are rain nymphs:

They will be the community supports:

1. Crisis line - I am supposed to phone before I am completely in crisis, be honest, and be clear - no euphemisms. 

2. Psychiatrist to up meds

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4. 

I'm not really sure what community supports looks like so I guess as I learn more I can change or add stuff.

The Amnisades

 

Image: Edmund Dulac, (from The Tempest)

E. The Amnisades will help me with the dogs and will represent the strategies I use to de-escalate and tolerate stress. 

Children of the River God Amnios (Amnios River is now called Karteros River), 20 of the nymphs were handmaidens of Artemis. "and give me for handmaidens twenty Nymphai Amnisides (Nymphs of Amnisus) who shall tend well my buskins, and, when I shoot no more at lynx or stag, shall tend my swift hounds.’" "For thee [Artemis] the Amnisiades rub down the hinds [i.e. the golden-horned deer which draw her chariot] loosed from the yoke, and from the mead of Hera they gather and carry for them to feed on much swift-springing clover, which also the horses of Zeus eat; and golden troughs they fill with water to be for the deer a pleasant draught . . .

The 20 Amnisades will be in the river with the Pleiades as part of my Yellow Zone. I'm using mostly Christine Karron artwork, however she sells coloring pages of her art and so a lot of these images are differently colored by others.

So far, my de-escalation strategies are as follows, but it may change as I learn more:

1. Mindfullness distractions - cooking, game on phone, project, funnies, sorting ...

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2. Window of Tolerance - 

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3. Positive Self-talk, visualizations (waves, power pose, safe place)

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4. Music - confidence playlist

5. Forest/Trees - zoom out perspective

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6. reframe triggers/cptsd

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7. identify patterns

Monstera Mermaid, FaerytaleWings

8. art therapy

Naiad, twogranniesandanaxe.

9. Adapt stressful situations to make them work

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10. little steps, one at a time

Fantasia 2000

11. sit with emotions and care for the dogs

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12. grounding techniques - 5 senses grounding, breathing, ...

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13. PAUSE (P - pause when recognise cues, A - ANTs, U - understand you are safe and reframe ANTs, S - self- soothe with sensory, E - exhale - breathing.)

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14. Visuals - I just found a bunch of stuff on Pinterest that looks like it will help me. I may need some help whittling it all down, but I think quite a bit of it will work for me - lots of rainbows, lol. I will post as I go through them.

Christine Karron

15. Problem Solving - lists, research

20. Sensory breaks - 8 senses, both seeking and avoiding strategies for each, with dryads:

joenni

a) Visual - calming = read, go outside. seeking = game/video on phone.

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b) auditory - calming = humming, quiet space/outside. seeking = audiobook.

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c) taste - calming = cough candy, seeking = candy cane

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d) smell - calming = essential oils, seeking = essential oils

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e) tactile - calming = hug, seeking = fidgets.

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f) balance - calming = tight/weighted, seeking = jumping/balancing

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g) movement - calming = stretches, seeking = chewing, walking, wall pushes

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h) internal/emotional - calming = breathing, seeking = rev up breathing.