Summer Days

I just figured out that I am a workaholic. I'm sure everyone knows that already. I have read about workaholics missing out on their kids growing up. Thought it was terrible. I was glad I worked from home so I could be with my kids.

And knew that I was too busy or too tired to do stuff with them. But I was with them 24/7, soooo . . . .

I told someone that last year I first wore shorts when we went on our summer holidays - the third week of August. It still didn't click. Really, I was just too busy.

Ummm, that is what a workaholic is - someone who is too busy with work to spend time with their family. Duh.

I think I didn't think of it as work, because I love it. And I knew that I was just building my business for a year or two, then it would settle down again.

Except that really I do it all the time.

So the Summer of Love is all about relaxing with the fam . . .

And we are all loving it!

Loving Myself

Boy, this has been so hard this winter - I have felt like such a train wreck, causing stress to everyone I am around, that I just cannot like myself. (Although I am starting to suspect that most of the stress is all in my head. Not all, but most)

And of course, this turns out to be one of the big keys to finding balance and becoming a better mother.

If you can't love yourself, you can't love others.

So I am working very hard on reminding myself to treat me like the kids - love me for who I am, not what I do. To cut me some slack, to take time to baby myself, to love on me a bit.

So the winter of love (focussed on giving love to the kids) worked well for what it was. But it feels like it fell far short of what i was hoping for. And that's because I am not in the equation, i am just doing stuff for others, not actually connecting - just watching.

like always.

So now comes the summer of love.

Of loving myself.

Of BEING with the kids, doing things that make me happy and feeling loved.

Partly inspired by this - http://www.thechaosandtheclutter.com/archives/week-of-boring

Wish me luck :)