its been over 5 months since my world stopped in its tracks, and i started to try and chart a new, safer course.
trying to find help.
support.
a way to make it work.
so far, i have found no help. oh wait, someone prescribed me some med's. that was definitely helpful.
the waves keep capsizing me. i keep falling apart, getting overwhelmed with each new setback. i keep getting up. i keep trying.
how did life get so hard?
how do i find the strength to start trying again after drowning in despair?
how long does this go on?
i suppose . . . . for the rest of my life.
Christopher gave me back my hopefulness, Walter gives me love, the kids give me strength and determination.
i will find a way.
i cross my fingers that my battered contraption of a life doesn't fall disastrously apart, and sink us all.
here's wishing for a fair wind, and possibly a beautiful sunrise or two.
