Wednesday, August 12, 2009

can you return the gift of life?

People say that life is a precious gift. Etiquette says its bad manners to return a gift, and religious people say its terrible to return this one.

I just spent a weekend with a friend who lost her husband to suicide a few months ago. Lots of talking about death, greiving, and suicide.

she feels so frustrated, because he had tried a few times in the last few weeks, but she wasn't able to get help for him anywhere. Possibly it was muddled because he had chronic health problems as well, and some people focussed on those instead of the suicide attempts, thinking if they could help his health, then the suicide attempts would stop. It was a terribly stressful time for both of them, both of them looking for help, while he was trying to go without hurting her, and she was trying to keep him here.

I found myself quite conflicted. Having been to the edge before, I think you should have the choice to end it all, and if there had been euthanasia, his passing would have been loving and peaceful, rather than secretive and stressful.

I also know that if you can make it through, life goes on. So its important to keep trying.

But everyone dies of something, illness or accident. A few more years alive is important, but I don't think its the end-all-or-be-all. I guess it depends on what you want to spend it on.

I just met a man who has fought cancer 3 times in the last 5 years. He has plans to be around for many more years. Living is obviously very important to him!

I'd like to find out how to make it easier for people to accept death. in some cultures, it is not the end of the world like it is here. I guess i'll start incorperating some of those into my family's life, so they'll be a bit more prepared. Or at least, they'll hopefully have some coping methods.





Thursday, August 6, 2009

baby boy

just had the first ultrasound, baby is a boy! everyone is very excited. we think he is already very cute, even though the photo's are just black-and white x-ray type blobs right now!

But he has one or both feet clubbed, and his heart is in the wrong spot, so we will be going for a few more ultrasounds and tests to make sure everything is working right, and that the abnormalities aren't connected to some syndrome or other.

So far, very minor complications. Fingers crossed that it stays that way.