spring is here. well, its been snowing all week, but the tulips and daffodils came out last week, so its technically spring.
baseball and soccer started this week. COLD!
second daughter is the only girl in her baseball league, and loving it. I thought she might drop out, but she is proud of being able to do what the boys do. What a tomboy. And she is such a skid - remember the eighties' skid? Tight jeans, ratty t-shirt, long stringy hair, attitude. cracks me up!
little boy is in soccer. last year all his friends were in it, this year he is so excited to be joining them. He's had one practice. He was one of 4 kids out of 50 who spent most of the time sitting on their ball, wandering around, picking up interesting sticks. I thought he didn't like it, but he was like "why is it over, i was having fun!" He's always off in his own world. hmmm, come to think of it, i need to get his ears checked. he's been having difficulty understanding us lately. maybe that explains some it!
big girl is getting braces and a tonsillectomy/adnoidectomy in the next few months. poor thing.
hubby is still unemployed, and not happy about it. I worry about his drinking, but he hasn't got himself into trouble. we know a few people who have just lost their kids or jobs because of drugs or alcohol. hubby doesn't cross that line. drinking sounds so 'bad', but is it really that different than spending lots of time blogging or scrappbooking or making minature trains? he hates that i 'judge' him. but i'm always watching to see how many he's having. i hate that i do that, that i'm so aware of it. i guess i'm like a back seat driver, afraid that if i stop pointing everything out, he'll crash. maybe i should just 'look out the window', and let him be.
i am okay. the elephant in my room is getting easier to see around. i am moving forward.
that said, i can't wait to be 5 years in the future, and through the worst of it. everything now is either compared to last year, or anticipating the next milestone.
Good to see you, Shygirl.
ReplyDeleteSoccer just started for you? Ours has only been going for a couple of weeks... we play it as a winter sport here.
Boo's best friend at school is a girl, and until this year (they're playing the under12's) she has always been the only girl in the soccer team. She's certainly held her own! I'm sure second daughter will do the same in her baseball team.
Sounds like you've got a lot going on... Hope big girl's surgery goes well... and the braces. Poor thing.. all happening at once.
I'm SO sorry that hubby is still unemployed. And I'm quite confused about his drinking. Is he drinking more because he's depressed about being unemployed and is therefore self-medicating? Could it be a way of numbing his pain over Christopher too?
If his drinking gets in the way of his ability to function normally, then you must get some help in order to cope.
Otherwise I guess i'd be praying that he starts feeling better and stops feeling the need to drink.
I had a couple of years where I definitely drank too much on a regular basis because of my depression. The minute I was put on medications that worked, I lost the desire to drink pretty much completely.
(((((Big hugs))))) I'm so glad you're moving forwards. Just remember that there is no "right" was to grieve.
love, Fe xoxoxo