Beauty

Time for another update!

Now that my meds have settled me down and I am no longer up until 1am every night either with Tana's schoolwork or my projects, I have been getting more sleep. Instead of sleeping right through my summer holidays or being totally wired because of anxiety, I was relaxed. Every once in awhile I stop and realise that I am not exhausted.

I did have a really rough spring anxiety-wise, and ended the summer with a few anxiety attacks, but things settled back down this fall, and now I actually experience beauty again - the first time in years. Who would have thought that beauty was an emotion, but I have learned that it is the one I miss the most when I lose myself. I think I was triggered in the spring by a conversation with a friend in which she talked about her friend who had tried to kill himself. I went for a couple of sessions with my new counsellor, who I absolutely love, and made some interesting discoveries.

Hubby is doing better this year, I managed to get him out visiting people and camping, which he really enjoyed. He is still tired all the time, but not exhausted, so its improving steadily. He has reconnected with a couple of friends and his mood is getting better.

Big Girl enjoys working, but she is casual so not a lot of work. She has been having a lot of difficulty with anxiety and mood lately, hopefully we figure it out soon.

Little Girl is enjoying her year off, even though I am getting her to do work around the house in lieu of rent. And I keep pushing for her to get a job, lol.

Little Boy is having another good year, and is reconnecting with some old friends.

So, all is well for the moment. *big sigh of relief*