learning curve

being with people is exhausting. even being with animals.

always jostling, always a power struggle.

the dog - you have to show that you are the boss. dogs need a strong leader.

the goats - they try to be the boss too. you always have to be the boss.

kids - you always have to be consistent, to be doing what is good for them - not what they want to do. you always have to be the boss.

husbands - you always have to be placating them, building them up. then they will be there for you - placating you and building you up, when you need it. hopefully.

mothers - dancing the balance of mother/daughter through the years. always a daughter, bowing to the wisdom of the elder. always a mother, teaching and correcting.

people - always balancing between listening and telling.

It's exhausting.


I have just chosen a job where I have to be interacting with people all the time. I have never been able to do that, it is so exhausting for me. I have been on my case for years to interact more.

And now all I can think of is going off into a quiet corner by myself. And that is just with family!

I think I have a steep learning curve!